Sleepless Nights Before Departure: She Doesn't Mind

This past week, I've ate all of my favorite foods, done a ton of packing, unpacking, and repacking, and learning some Hangul. This weekend was the last weekend that I will have in the States for 12 1/2 months for S. Korea. I leave for Korea on July 3rd! Until yesterday, everything about going abroad for a year was very surreal.

Yesterday, my family and friends surprised me with a last going away sort of shin dig. My family and friends went to 1. lie to me 2. look through my phone to get in touch with some of my friends (little brother, still not sure how I feel about this one) 3. just being there to see me before I left. My family convinced me my cousin's and aunts/uncles were coming into town on Saturday for a family dinner/get together (hardly uncommon in our family). My mother of course kept asking me if my friends were coming for weeks. All of this was a ruse because she knew they were. She was just trying to get me worked up and disappointed that I wouldn't see any of them before I left. 

Well, thanks you guys! I was genuinely surprised!! Seriously, I love you all so so much, and it meant so much to me that you guys took the time out of busy schedules to see me before I left. 

I had the most amazing time with everyone, but towards the end of the evening once the "good byes and keep in touch's" started, the feeling of finally leaving was setting in. I'm very anxious and nervous. I am excited, but the feeling of a heavy heart is a bit overpowering to it. I know that with technology everyone that I care about will be close by, but it's the comfort of the known that I'll miss. I won't be able to randomly go sit around in my friend's living room talking for hours nor drive 3 hours (which now seems so short) to seek comfort in my mom if I'm upset. I won't be able to give or receive a hug from the people that I care about, nor will I be able to even comment on something as simple as the cologne that they are using. Knowing that my relationships with people I love are going to inevitably change, but not knowing how makes me a little uneasy. 

But before I try to sift through and process these different emotions, I have to share that I will be at this gorgeous university for seven weeks for orientation: Jealous? 

And for those of you who asked for a mailing address, I will get that on here ASAP! :) 

--Time for another attempt at sleep, I have a very busy last full day in the States tomorrow, possibly filled with repacking, last minute purchases, and an early July 4th celebration with sparklers.